It’s my birthday today. Cried the entire day. I love him more than my life and family. He walked away humiliating me and my feelings. I know I just don’t deserve to suffer so much for being loyal, true and honest. He left me like I’m worthless and tortured me with silence. Didn’t expect money gifts or anything materialistic. Just time and his presence. For some, it’s move on time. For me, it’s just a pause button forever. I have to fight battles alone. It hurts alot. Even after a year. It’s not like someone is going to come and save the day like the movies books or poems, it’s life long pain and grief. Every time I see a movie, a family, love - I’ll only know how much I worked hard and put my soul into it to watch myself fail suffer and fall apart in silence choking in darkness. I have to pay bills and keep playing my part desperately waiting for a goodbye from life Tldr: This isn’t one of those moments where you troll or ask for TC. I’m suffering.
This is a phase. Grieve and take steps move forward. It's gonna be hard but you've todo. I cried for 3 bdays , and my ex dint give a shit. They shattered me into pieces and left. It's still hard to put back together. I'm numb in so many things, as simple as smelling the coffee. It's the trauma, the pain, they moved on and I'm struggling to feel alive again.
Hey OP, sorry to hear that and belated happy birthday! It’s been a year , too long to be crying over the past. You should create profiles on dating apps and start dating men. I’m pretty sure there are fine men out there . Cheer up , go for a walk today and get your profile up by evening!
Hey OP, I can completely feel you. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe that person was not good for you. Maybe God heard/saw something that you didn't. Someone better is waiting for you. I know how you have a lot of pain and memories with him, but please don't hurt yourself more about thinking about the same thing over and over again. For some time try to go out with family, friends or alone. One more thing is that, stop making somebody your source of happiness. I was in that phase. You should enjoy your own company. Enjoy being alone and your own company. Alone is not equivalent to lonely. Your future partner is waiting for you, please don't hurt yourself more and move forward. Have faith in God's plan. Happy Birthday ❤️
Thank you haruki15. I’m trying, I really am. But I fall apart. I have lost my only soulmate. I wish God heard me crying every day too.
Hey OP, think about this way, what if your partner would have left you after marriage? Or Child? It would be more painful than it is now right? God definitely has heard or seen something that was not visible to you and he got you covered there by making that person go away right now itself instead of later. And God is definitely with you, sooner or later you will realise that it happened for a good reason. Don't lose hope. B+ and stay strong. We are with you.✌️
This might help: https://www.instagram.com/p/C6RRxxIOgXP
Sorry for what happened to you. Your username is a tiger yet you don’t behave like one. He did that to you because you lacked self respect,self love and saw you as inferior to him. You believed in a grand image of him in your head not the real him. Look back and judge him for his actions, you will start puking as to why you even got with him in first place. I suggest you to go for therapy, nobody in life including your own family/children is worth loving more than yourself❤️