I got PIPed in Q1 2024; URA quota according to blind timelines. I have 15 YOE in retail, 3 at amazon, but with great reviews my whole career. First time unemployed and I feel like a complete failure. I keep going back to last yr and what I could've done better at amazon. The therapist says I'm depressed but I don't know how to come out. I feel numb most days with no hope. On the job hunt, the market is bad, I'm getting some interviews, but companies are picky right now. I was frankly expecting a lot more interviews after applying to so many downleveled and lower paying roles , so that sends me into another set of worries. Im either in a depressed state or anxious state, either thinking about the future or made up worst-case scenarios of not getting another job ever (I'm mid 40s) Spouse works and can cover living costs for a while if needed, and we have a healthy 3M NW in VHCOL. Not enough to retire, but no reason to panic either. TC - 0 Has someone dealt with this before? What should I do to help myself get out of this state? #tech #depression #mentalhealth
Have you tried at the companies you worked previously?
Well maybe if i share my situation you might feel better. I am on h1b got piped. Have only 60 days to find job in this dead market. Have wife. Only 3 yoe. 100k in savings. Don’t know what will happen next. But still have a hustle in me. I am applying and getting interviews and getting rejected. One day i will make it.
Kids?
Amazon pip likely has nothing to do with your skill, it’s just an employee blender. You’re still good, if not better now. Get out there and apply - people want to interview you and hire you.
Thank you google, for the kind words. I was the last one to join my team, and they froze hiring after I joined, first in team, then in org and then company wide. I hope it's a numbers game now and eventually these interviews will convert.
It’s a difficult situation but positive thing is your NW and spouse can maintain the lifestyle without escalating situation in immediate future. Here’s what could help: 1) Give yourself time to unwind from the trauma 2) Try to relax by using +ve distractions (engaging in easy and relaxing activities ex: meditate, listening to music, gym, walk, hike, bike, read, travel etc.) 3) don’t try to find what went wrong and what could you’ve done better, it will not let you do 1&2. No point even if you find the reason as it’s in the past and you can’t change anything by overthinking 4) Slowly you would heal and start applying when you feel (psychologically healed) you are ready 5) Be mentally ready for rejections as the market conditions are tough (don’t let it make you feel you/your skills are not enough) 6) Make best of time with kids and family Everyone’s journey is different. Sharing from experience but hope above pointers help.
Just do your own thing for a bit and get a side gig kind of job that will distract you
Any pointers on how to get side gig type roles