I still miss her and our relationship. I just realized we would have been dating 8 years now, if covid didn’t happen and we had a big fight during our long distance relationship that broke us
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Dude 4 years? This is a little concerning.
One big fight broke the relationship?
that’s not completely the full story, but i have a horrible coping mechanism with stress where I withdrew myself that also damaged the relationship. After 4 months of not seeing each other (due to lockdown) and towards the end of my phd, i had a mental breakdown (where I turtled) that led to a big fight.
She’s American
Have you been in relationship after that?
Yeah 2. None of it worked out because i still missed my ex and unconsciously compared them to my ex. One i dated for 6m, the other for 12 months.
Gotcha. I can understand. I don’t think I miss my ex but I miss the personality she had. She was very bubbly and extrovert. It’s hard to find such a person again.
Jesus dude, get help
Why this post is under Tech Industry and not Relationship?
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bro…you should’ve moved on 3.75 years ago. She’s probably had 3 exes after you.
How are things in fantasy world OP?
This is what I really want to do. She moved to the East Coast. i want to find a job there, maybe get a remote job, and hope that there is a chance encounter with her. I don’t know. It sounds crazy but it’s one of the reasons why I am switching jobs right now
How come you are not able to contact her in so many years? Did you guys not have common friends? Try her email or LinkedIn. You could ask her for one last call and see where it takes you. After a 4-year relationship, that person doesn't care how you are doing or what has happened in your life, and you are still blocked. I don't know about you, OP, but this seems like a person with little emotional maturity. Perhaps you are still craving her attention because she left you abruptly, and you didn't get the closure you needed.
How's the sex life ?