I’ll keep this short because I don’t really belong to this forum anyways. My mind is racing about so many things right now that I cant even string a proper freaking sentence together because I feel so god damn lost. Long story short, I landed a 8 month long internship here at sap (my first ever internship) and I really like it here but since i’m so far away from graduating I cant really ask for a return offer which really bums me out because it makes me feel really stressed about the future cuz what if I can’t find a decent company to work at once i graduate. What if i just got lucky with this one job. So to prove myself I can clear other companies like SAP I applied to almost every company under the fucking sun and I got called for an interview at two “unicorns”, one bank and two other well known companies. Out of all these companies I was only able to clear the bank and the unicorns, the rest rejected me. And in the midst of panic I agreed to join the unicorn after my current internship but I don’t really wanna do that cuz they’re a downgrade compared to my current internship (i see all these ex-sap interns interning at FAANG, so it’s probably a bad look for me to go from SAP to a startup) so now i’m at the risk of getting black listed from a company that is relatively easy to land which means I cant really use them as a safety net when I graduate. I know this block of text doesn’t really make much sense but the TLDR would be, stupid 19 year old turning 20 soon cant pass most interviews, cant even get interviews at faang and is falling behind his peers. Compared to other soon sap interns i’m really lacking. I saw this kid who got into slack after sap, another one got into coinbase and then there’s me with an offer from a trashy local unicorn. I really don’t know what to do right and it feels like the walls are closing in on me. #tech #internship #failure edit: TC 33 an hour
Career is a marathon, not a sprint. You're 19 yo, you landed an internship at SAP, cleared out a bunch of other interviews on the side... Rejections are part of the game. You're doing really well mate :)
I empathize with you bro/sis but that wasn’t a short post. I would say it’s good that you know what you are doing. At your age, I didn’t even know why I existed. Don’t lose hope and keep trying hard. Also, don’t compare yourself with other kids. You will figure it out.
Bro, you are 20. You can't be behind yet. So you don't land your dream job right out of college. You can still get there! Just focus on figuring out what part of coding you are interested in at this point, and never stop learning. You don’t have to be the most intelligent person in the room to enjoy what you are doing and make good money.
Don’t panic. Everyone has been where you are - actually, not true, I never got an internship while in college. I worked in the EE department running cables under the floor. So, you’re doing fine. As a junior, you are not expected to clear these interviews. In the olden days, I typed up enough resumes and cover letters to collect a tower of 200 rejection letters. Don’t panic. Focus on your studies. Enjoy college.
do you think i should do the internship at the unicorn?
If I were in college again, I would not. I would focus on my classes and hang out with my friends, eat somewhere good and cheap, watch movies. You will never be in such a rich social environment again. Enjoy it while you can. You have the rest of your career to work hard.
Stop comparing yourself to others and just do you
You are so young! Excellent time to join a unicorn 🦄 don't put pressure on yourself just yet.
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Uf , imposter syndrome hit you hard. Suck it up and just LC. You'll be fine, we have all been in your position. Dont cry about the situation , literally EVERYONE who works in tech has felt like this. Embrace it. It sucks but who gives a shit, keep pushing you got this.
This is what imposter syndrome is?
Yes , feeling like you cant do it, feeling like your not good enough... etc.